Monday, January 4, 2010

New Year 2010!

Many of you do not know this . . .  but I am married . . .  I was married young and I am still the age of many college students . . .  but marriage and living in the real world has taught me more than I ever learned from school.  I really believe that I have a distinct and unique perspective on life in America and the Christian culture here . . . .  because I believe I have been on both sides of the fence . . . in a way.  I have been on the skeptical side of the fence for many years . . .  I have been on the doubting side of the fence . . .  I have been on the moral and "sophisticated" side of the fence . . . or more like 'moral and successful' side . . . . I have been on the side of the street where girls and boys grow up in gangs and with the only they  . . . and even I could seem to get back at the world was to lash out with words . .  or with raw emotional physical destruction . . . . but nothing can ever really take the pain away from not only having no family  . . .  but also growing up in a violent, abusive, and many times life threatening environment . . . . .  and  . . . I have also grown up with the thought that I did not understand why it was so hard to believe in God . . . or wondering what it was even like to have a spiritual renewal experience of my very own. 

Well sometimes things happen . . .  and GOD happens  . . . when you least expect it  . . .  and just like as in the story with the footprints . . .  you suddenly look back  . .  and you are amazed at the wonders God has performed in your life when you didn't even realize it.

AT this time  . . . right after Christmas  . . . and the new year 2010 already begun . . .  I think about all my Atheistic friends . . .  I think about my emotionally torn past . . .  and I think about my parents . . . not even knowing if they are even saved . . . I worry more than anything about whether I can help the people closest to me to learn about Jesus and be saved . . .  I mean who knows? . . .  The second coming could be any day now . . . . and STILL people come to my site just to mock me . . .  Seriously I am more saddened for them than for any personal attacks they make towards me.  Nothing can be worse than Hell . . . nothing . . . .

And at this time . . .  I also have doubts . . . like what am I even doing anymore . . .  where my life is going . . .  so many times I have even asked myself if I am kidding myself about this 'God thing'  knowing that my parents told me themselves they thought I was crazy . . .

It's weird that the one thing that makes MY life complete . . . is the one thing that separates me from the majority of people on the planet . . .  the majority of whom are not Christians . . . do not take the question of the afterlife seriously, do not think about consequences or purpose to what is going on in their lives at this exact moment  . . .  All they can think about is how their life choices will effect their personal comfort . . .  and THAT is what is accepted in society right now . . . and I'm sure has been accepted for a long long time . . . .

The holidays are very rough on me . . . so I ask that anyone reading this would PLEASE keep me in prayer . . . I am not good at asking this to people face to face right now . . . So I will leave it in God's hands . . . that whoever reads this post and decides to pray for me . . . . I'm sure that is just the right person I need to pray for me . . . .

You see . . .  my marriage to a believing and professing Christian has caused a rift between me and my former friends and family . . .  and it has saved me from an abusive environment . . .  Somehow . . .I believe that whether or not I am able to help close this rift  . .  the least I can do is try to help close the rift between Christians and Atheists here in America and around the world . ..  especially those that I relate to  . . . those who still have the most hope and window of opportunity to come to understand each other . . .  the youth of our generation.

And so I can only pray that someone will reach my own family and friends . ..  but at the moment I cannot . .  and I am not emotionally able to . . .  It has been killing me inside . . . But I'm going to have to leave it in God's hands . .  and perhaps I will help reach someone reach a member of someone else's family that no one else could reach.

The reason I believe so strongly in talking about Creation Science . . .  is because . .  Science is like a god to this world to Secularists and Atheists . . .  and science is something people know to be good and helpful . . .  science is something people can relate to . . .  If we can take this jumping off point and run with it . . .  just like Paul did with the 'unknown god' with the Greeks . ..  perhaps we can reach some people with the truth that has saved us . . . the Saving faith in Jesus Christ our Lord.

Sunday, December 20, 2009

Thoughts on Christmas

I've been thinking about Christmas . . .  Thinking about God, Thinking about the too-good-to-be-true  miracle of Jesus Christ, God's only son becoming flesh and walking among us . .  to show us how to live, to relate to our struggles, to show us how to love, and to inevitably die for our sins hung tortured on a cross . .  with nails through His wrists and feet, and pieces of His flesh on His back ripped apart by flogging . . .  pieces of His soul and His dignity,  any His psychological strength and will being ripped away from Him as He was mocked, insulted, lied about, misunderstood, not accepted . . .  and He was PERFECT.  Jesus lived the perfect life.  How horrible and sad He must have felt to know that no matter what He did . .  . people rejected Him . .  how horrible for the world . . that even when someone who was completely good . . . even then a person not go through this life without pain because the world really doesn't like good, kindness, or love, but the world is influenced with deception and evil . . .  the world rejects truth, the world rejects light, and the world rejects the salvation that was given through the blood of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior! Praise Be His Name!

I say "Merry Christmas" to people when I am working (retail) because I believe it is a friendly greeting . .  and in some way . .  I am wishing that even if they do not celebrate Christmas I wish them a good life . .  and a good day on Christmas.  My secret best wish for them at Christmas, however, is that they find real true happiness for this life and in the next . . . and of course the only way this is possible is if they find Jesus  :  )  So I feel I must say Merry Christmas . . it is the least I can do on Christmas.  So many people say "Happy Holidays" but I much prefer to say Merry Christmas . . . If my job had a problem with it then I would have to decide whether to keep saying it or not . .  or else perhaps worst case scenario- lose my job . ..  but as things stand I am not in that predicament . . .  I have been before but am not at this moment . .  and so I choose to say "Merry Christmas" . . .  because every time I say "Merry Christmas" I feel free . .  and every time I have tried to bring myself to say the politically correct "Happy Holidays" I feel like a piece of my soul has died and I feel defeated.  But when I say "Merry Christmas", I feel like I am free to express myself as part of God's Creation!  I know that I am created by God, and so my purpose in life is to give Him glory.

Some may feel that the 'Happy Holidays/Merry Christmas' controversy should not be a controversy at all . .  but I do not mean to make it a controversy . . . I just mean to express my true nature as a creation of God . . .  just as with being a Creationist, I do not mean to cause controversy  . . .  but I am more afraid of creating controversy between myself and my God . . than "creating controversy" between myself and just people.  God is God and people are just people . . just part of His Creation . .  and so I will say "Merry Christmas" because I can . .  and because it makes me happy to . .  just like it makes me happy to talk about Creation Science . .

I love God and it is in my created nature to say "Merry Christmas" and in some way when I say it . . .  it is like an invite and a blessing to all those who hear it . . so that maybe . . just maybe . .  when they do hear it . . . they will think . .  hmm . . . I wonder what this thing called "Christmas" is all about? . . . and if they would find out the meaning . . . they will find life . . .  eternal life in Jesus Christ . . .  - and THAT is the meaning of Christmas.

And so  . . . though it may even feel like Spiritual Warfare just to get the words out our mouths, "Merry Christmas" I would risk anything to say it . . .  because no matter what job or status I have in this world . . . it is all NOTHING if I cannot acknowledge my Creator especially on the day He gave Himself to us to save my soul and the souls of the whole world.  And so, whatever job or organizations or status or responsibilities I have in the rest of my life . . . I hope to NEVER stop saying "MERRY CHRISTMAS!"

Merry Christmas to you all!  May God Bless You Abundantly!
-The Creation Chick

Sunday, September 13, 2009


Hi There . . Creation chick here . . . I just wanted to let everyone know . . thanks for supporting me and friending . . subscribing to me . . etc . . . it's actually been a really good outlet for me to get some of my thoughts out there and share with people who have common ideals as me . . . I really have been encouraged by how many God fearing Christians are in there twenties or around that generation . . just like me . . we really need to stick together . . because we are really going to determine what happens next in this country . . in the world . . in history . . etc . . . I just wanted to give you a little personal insight into my life . . and I know I may be shooting myself in the foot . . . because yes . . . there are always people who take advantage of people who put themselves out there or share personal details . . . I really made the Creation Chick . . so that no one would know who I was . . and I could really say what I thought . . for real . . not just pressured into it . . you see I've had trying times in my life . . . much of it is not easy to understand . . and much of it is not easy to understand even for me . . . which is interesting that people go through things that they do not understand . . well . . I'm one of them . . just like everyone else . . I don't have all the answers for everything . . I have genuine fears . . and I have times that I just simply can't make it anymore . . . that's when God has come in to my life . . but recently . . I have felt that God has been being 'a little tough' on me . . as I have been saying to friends, family, and counselors along the way . . I feel like God is encouraging me to be strong and confident . . . and not have to feel like I am going to die and the world is going to end and I am going to get fired . . etc . . etc . . etc . . every time I lose my keys . . He is trying to help me to have peace in myself and . . of course . . to not lose my keys so much . . hee hee . . . but peace in myself . . wow! that's something that I could go on and on and on and on about . . . I really think that's one of the true reasons that we are put on earth . . to find ourselves . . to find peace with ourselves . . . some try to find it IN ourselves . . but the reality . . the real truth of the matter . . . is that . . . we can only find peace with and for ourselves . . only in Jesus Christ . . . this is something that is difficult to accept .. . because by our very nature as human beings we want to do things ourselves . . . I'm telling you right now . . I have yelled, screamed, cried . . argued with and tried to disobey God . . when He has been showing me something that I need to be doing . . and I am scared to death . . because I am afraid that He is wrong . . that He doesn't understand quite all the angles of the situation . . that He doesn't understand my feelings . . that He doesn't understand my limit of stress or my limit to what I can do at this point in my life . . .that He doesn't understand that I can't afford to lose friends or money right now . . just so I can take a chance yet again on an invisible Harvey-like pal . . who yes . . has always been there for me . . but it has always been on faith . . and what about when my faith is shaky . . and what about the fact that I am secretly scared to death that this might be the one time that He's going to let me down . . . forget about me . .. or be high and mighty . . not care about me . . why should he? . . . I'll admit . . it's difficult . . but can I honestly say that God has EVER let me down about ANYTHING? . . . no . . . He hasn't . . . and that's difficult to say . . because humans are used to being in control . . . and the fact that God always knows best and has NEVER EVER MESSED UP on ANYTHING at all! the fact that He NEVER has a hidden motive like people usually do . . the fact that He NEVER tries to be nice to us . . until the moment of weakness . . and then totally change and use us and take advantage of us for everything we are . . . the fact that he NEVER will even ignore us . . EVEN IF WE KEEP BEING ANNOYING AND PRAYING ABOUT LOST KEYS LIKE 10 TIMES A DAY! . . . I mean seriously .. If God helped me find my keys every time I prayed because I was an emotional wreck trying to find my way around my lonely apartment with No ties to family or friends or any kind of sense of direction or where to turn next . . being constantly plagued by flashbacks . . post-traumatic stress . . feelings of guilt . . shame . . hurt . . insecurity . . fear . . hoplessness . . restlessness . . . suicidal thoughts . . . extreme thoughts of anger toward people who hurt me . . and everyone who stood around and let it happen . . . WHICH WAS EVERYONE in my book . . because NO ONE DID ANYTHING TO HELP ME . . so that means . . EVERYONE let it happen . . . and in my eyes . . I had condemned the whole world . . no chance of love or friendship . . caring . . or anything that involved trust and sharing between people . . . get an apartment all alone . . . go to a job where I don't ever talk to a living soul . . and wait to die . . that was my goal . . and I mean I was a Christian . . the weird thing . . is that I really want to talk about everything that happened to me . . . but if I did . . I wouldn't be about to be sane for work tomorrow . . so I can't right now . . . so please don't guess at what happened or if you know . . don't comment . . please . . it would be too difficult for me to take emotionally . . what I'm saying is that I'm not better than anyone else . . but I'm certainly no less than anyone else either . . and I'm going to state my opinion just the same as everyone else has a right to state there's . . . but what I'm saying is that God has given me new life . . . I have joy now . . where there was none before . . I can sit alone without thinking terrible negative thoughts about myself . . I can relax . . I can relate to actual human beings . . people that I don't even know say I'm sweet or funny . .or kind or whatever . . the reality is that that is the love and the mercy of Jesus showing through me . . I am nothing without Him . . and I have never been anything without Him . . I just thought I was . . before I started to learn about the REAL reason for living . . it's almost like a mystery that has to be unfolded to us because . . this was not the original way things were supposed to be! you know? . . . people who say that there shouldn't be so much pain and suffering in the world . . and that the world seems like the fittest survive and that only the strong and mean get ahead . . . well they are right! . . that is the way the world is going . . and if you look at how the world is going . . you might even think for a second that yes . . perhaps the tragic and uneventful reality is that there never was a purpose for life . . and that all the stories of love . . honor . . bravery . . hope . . purpose . . .kindness gentleness . . . extreme courage . . loyalty and goodness .. . perhaps these ideals . . are just all a mistake and a figment of our imagination . . right? . . . WRONG! we are created by God! He is our Creator, Redeemer, and our Friend . . . and we live in a fallen world! it's like the original connection with the Creator has been lost and we have forgotten our mission here on earth . . in the mean time . . we have gone on having our families and our lives . . but we have forgotten we have a mission! a mission to fulfill! and that mission is to constantly look to our true commander in chief - God the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit . . and constantly look to God for direction, guidance, hope, strength, encouragement, will, faith, and EVERYTHING WE NEED TO carry our the smallest tasks . . and to carry out the most awesome and unbelievable missions in His name!

Well .. . please pray for me .. . .I 'm going through some stuff that I can't handle . . . and I really need comfort and support from others . . . unfortunately . . what I'm going through is so personal and painful that I really can't bring myself to talk about it . .. but at least I acknowledged there is something there . . . God Bless You All,

- Creation Chick

Thursday, July 9, 2009

Psalm 8 - God's glory apparent in all creation!

Psalm 8 - New Living Translation

O Lord, our Lord, the majesty of your name fills the earth!
Your glory is higher than the heavens.

You have taught children and nursing infants
to give you praise.
They silence your enemies
who are seeking revenge.

When I look at the night sky and see the work of your fingers-
the moon and stars you have set in place-
what are mortals that you should think of us,
mere humans that you should care for us?
For you made us only a little lower than God,
and you crowned us with every glory and honor.
You put us in charge of everything you made,
giving us authority over all things-
the sheep and the cattle
and all the wild animals,
the birds in the sky, the fish in the sea,
and everything that swims the ocean currents.

Oh Lord, our Lord, the majesty of your name fills the earth!

Oh Lord . . please help me not to forget to thank you for all that you do for me and for all of us . . You could have turned your back on us when we went astray. . . . but You did not. You decided to send Your Son Jesus Christ so that we might have Salvation if we would only believe in Him. You could have made the world any way You wanted, but You chose to create beauty in everything we see . . so that when we are feeling sad and lonely . . sometimes all it takes is to go outside . . to be reminded of all that is good in the world. Thank you Lord . . for providing food, clothes, friends, family, love, happiness, joy, music, and beauty, so that my daily life can be a joy to live . . if I will only see it that way. Amen

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Psalm 5 - Hard Day on Youtube

Psalm 5 The Refuge of the Righteous - Holman Christian Standard Bible
for the choir director: with the flutes. A Davidic psalm

Listen to my words, Lord; consider my sighing.
Pay attention to the sound of my cry, my King and my God, for I pray to You.
At daybreak, Lord, You hear my voice; at daybreak I plead my case to You and watch expectantly.

For You are not a God who delights in wickedness; evil cannot lodge with You.
The boastful cannot stand in Your presence; You hate all evildoers.
You destroy those who tell lies; the Lord abhors a man of bloodshed and treachery.

But I enter Your house by the abundance of Your faithful love; I bow down toward Your holy temple in reverential awe of You.
Lord, lead me in Your righteousness, because of my adversaries; make You way straight before me.

For there is nothing reliable in what they say; destruction is within them; their throat is an open grave; they flatter with their tongues.
Punish them, God; let them fall by their own schemes.
Drive them out because of their many crimes, for they rebel against You.

But let all who take refuge in You rejoice; let them shout for joy forever.
May You shelter them, and may those who love Your name boast about You.
For You, Lord, bless the righteous one; You surround him with favor like a shield.

-my prayer
Lord, I have had a hard day today . . fending off attacks from evolutionists on my Youtube Channel . . I pray today, Lord . . please help me to stay strong, and please lift me up and strengthen me to fight for truth another day. Help me to know you more . . . help me to keep self-control over what I say and to not stoop to their level of name calling and violent words. Please Lord, let me take refuge in your arms. Here me when I pray . . and when I cry . . and when I do not know what to do. Lord, give me the words to say, and let me bring the light of truth to millions on the internet, if it be your will, - Amen